The Theft of the Poet’s Soul!
James W. ‘Wolf’ F. Roberts
All alone in the night,
Almost losing my will to fight—
My slowly dying heart
Lying in a cesspool
Of my own softening, decaying brain
I hear the dark creatures stirring
I hear the thrusting—thumping of my heart
Deafening the sound of inner-city life
The moon is shinning
Her promise of evil, evil delight
The night, the night
The sweet tender kiss
The sweet embracing blade that tears a hole
In my corpulent—corrupt soul
Lying soft on a rose petal’d bed—
Her are cold like the wind’s first harsh kiss of winter…
Body is warm like hell fire
Giving to me her all—
Giving into the bitterness that comes with forgotten first kiss—
This erotic evening for and me—
To which for an eternity had planned
As my crumbles into her every demand
Yes, I so longingly, so lovingly give in to each and every demand
Her skin like milk her body I don’t dare touch
Unless she forces me at pain to taste
My soul was once mine now it has been sold
From her touch, her kiss and her love, I shall not now grow old
Her eyes glow red in this pitch black room
With a smile on her so to seal my fate—my own doom
Her nails so sharp as she scrapes down my chest—
Now all I can do is feel the harsh hiss of my blood splattered over her face
Trickling down her succulent breast
We shared our gifts—my words—her tantalizing sex
In the passion of this fire; taste so, so sweet that we both now desire
* * *
I awake! Every night I see her face in the candle’s flame,
Ironically all I have ever wanted to her true purpose and her name!
But, I know right there and then—
We were meant to be
Two bodies entwining in one mind
Two souls embracing one spirit, one heart, one will
She has gone, she is always gone by the dawning sunlight
Our lust increases a hundred fold by the firelight—
I pursued the unicorn so far a field trapped in a time warp
Lost in the realm of my own self-conscious
I pursued that unicorn with diligence and grace
Perseverance that none too many showed
She retreated at every turn
She stalks me now, she stalks
Me like a lioness and a gazelle
When she bites within her prey I the victim, she the thrill of the kill
Me praying to end this hunt, she for the hunt and it thrill!
She fed off my innocence of feeling
And intolerable grief and longing
And that feeling of disgusting dread!
My innocence of love, my naivety of lust!
To her nothing but fodder for her bloodlust
I opened my arms to her,
My suspicious nature to her was blind!
Until she showed me the mirror
And no reflection of her of me showed in kind
It was her, her first lead me without no regrets!
She pierced my skin, me just longing for her heart!
Our wounding of each other, so, so deep
That the blood would not, could not stop!
We kept our lips and bodies close, so tightly shut,
Would linger over every drop!
A whole new world, I couldn’t see, until she opened my eyes,
Depraved revelations that almost sent me blind!
Then she speak to me and calls my name…
“In the darkness, do you hear me softly calling
that noise that makes you surely cry, come to me and you’ll never die!”
Tomorrow my life will soon pass by
and nobody will know just how or why
I’ll never feel the sadness
I’ll never feel the pain
I’ll never know just how much I may have gained
Why should I hurt so much for so little?
My life could change?
I may make a difference ?
I could make you smile?
I know it couldn’t…
I who hath loved so many
Had never been given what I truly wanted
A heart, a beautiful sacred, loving heart!
In return t’was I that hath given nothing back but pain and hurt
Will you ever forgive me for the choice I’ve made…?
I sat down in my sacred caved, for you yes I longed for babe!
I searched deep!
The deepest, darkest depths of my soul
I saw that evil that lieth there within!
My desires, my dreams, and my fears
The three are one, and that was she!
My heart burns at night, over and over again, crying out for your embrace!
That embrace that I am afraid of and yet I am longing for!
I retreat now into the night! To hide not you
It is not you or her that I fear, my loved and truly dear…
That feeling that burns within me that is what I mostly fear!
Oh how I long to once again look upon your face,
Those hazel, blue green Emerald eyes that swirl and twist and mesmerize!
Look within your memory and tell me what you now see?
There is a feeling in me that I know can never, ever lie…
Those true feelings that I have tried and tried to but, but they never hide!
When I see your pain it saddens me, come back, come to me
And you will find what is waiting for you, what your longing for
A love true and waiting that will always be true, waiting for you and you alone my
But, do you know that secret pains that burns within my crumbling soul!
For it’s you that I secretly burn,
But in order for you to be free and pursue all of your sacred, magical, empowered goals I had to let you be
And if that meant never again, together alone will we be…
Than so be it
My dominatrix, look at what you’ve done to me
What is this that now has control over all of me?